Damn, looking back at that post about my boyfriend.. FUUUUUCK! Well I can say that everything is amazingly perfect right now with him. I love him & that’s the realest it’s gonna get!
This is like.. The only place I can vent without anybody I know seeing it. Maybe a couple will, but fuck it.
I hate how you’re so shady about things. I can’t even count how many times you’ve lied to me. & Everytime we break up, I always take you back. Why? I can’t even answer that question. You treat me like shit. I honestly give you the world, & what do I get in return? Nothing. I don’t even know why, or how I fell in love with a guy like you. You’d think I’d realize after a year & a half of dating, but I guess I’m just too stupid to. You talk to so many other girls, what am I here for? You tell me I’m the only girl you want, the only girl you need, but clearly that’s not true. If it was, you wouldn’t be talking to the rest. You’re probably doing shit behind my back right now. I wouldn’t be suprised, it’s nothing new. I just don’t understand why you fight for me to stay everytime I try to leave. In my eyes, it’s not clear that you love me. Maybe I’m just not the one for you. Times like this I feel that we should move on. But neither of us allow eachother to. I just don’t get it. I hate the fact that you still talk to your ex, knowing that you two had a lot of history together. Sometimes I think you’re not over her. Well, not sometimes.. All the time. Everyone tells me I deserve so much better, & I know I do, but I stay with you because I can’t imagine life without you. I hate how my life suddenly revolved around you. I hate how I care so much. You don’t even realize how much I care. I don’t have any regrets for a fact, but sometimes, times like this, I wish you never walked into my life. I wish we never met, but I’m definitely thankful that we did. Don’t get me wrong at that. I just hope that you realize where I’m coming from. I hope that one day, all of our problems will go away & we’ll just be nothing but happy together. & I wish that you’d see this, even though I’m 99% sure that you won’t. But whatever happens, happens.
6 Years and Counting With This Young Man,
From The Beginning :
The Downfalls :
To The Comebacks :
The Goofy Moments :
The Funny Dance Moves :
Happy Moments :
The Sexual Moments :
The Breakdowns :
The Support :
And To The Haters :
We Love You Christopher Maurice Brown , (:
And now I’m crying :’) I love this man so much <3
= ’ )
my baby
If you gon fuck another man, let me know ahead of time so I can find a side bitch, on that ride or die shit. If not i’ll keep it faithful with you and let them know you my chick.
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Nights like these I cry myself to sleep, thinking if I did anything wrong. Cos honestly I don’t even know what the fuck I did.
Telling everyone you’re going to sleep, but in reality you just don’t want to talk to anyone but that one person. But that one person isn’t talking to me. 3
I had a Tumblr back in the summer of 2010. I was addicted to this shit, but once school started I stopped going on as much, so I deleted it. I got bored one day & decided to make a new Tumblr. It’s not the same anymore though. I don’t even blog like I used to. I go on Tumblr simply for entertainment.
